Friday, February 15, 2008

Seeing Light at the End of the Tunnel

39 weeks pregnant with the respiratory flu. Could it get any worse? I have not been this bad in a very Long time! I have officially been seperated from the world for almost a week now, and today was the first day in 6 days that I even made an effort to put alittle makeup on and venture out DRIVING! The Lord definitely knew that I could have a baby this week b/c they probably would have had to take it C-section b/c I was so incredibly weak. For those of you out there that have had this "flu" this year, you have my deepest sympathy, and for those of you that have not had it, Thank the LORD, and also help those that do have it! My husband had it last week and I honestly did not do a very good job at being a supportive wife and taking care of him, thought he was blowing it out of proportion, but I have been humbled and I have told him already that I am very Sorry for not understanding how bad he was. So today after day 4 of antibiotics, one of my ears finally popped (what an AWESOME feeling!), and I can finally see light and hope for the end. Baby J can come out now, ANYTIME, I am WAITING!!!!!!! I still can't believe that he hasn't come out yet! What is he waiting for now????

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

2 weeks to go

Well, today may have been my last day of work. I have the next week off, so we will see. My boss has someone on standby in case I don't make it, or I don't feel like going for the last 3 days next week Wednesday. I am feeling very Ready! I just feel like he is getting so big. He doesn't have room in there anymore. I am not that big of a person, Karlie was 8 lbs 4 oz, what if he is like 9?? Will I even be able to do it? I am petrified of this labor and have already cried to my Dr. about it. You may think I am a big whimp, but if you knew what I went through with Karlie, you would understand. I pray that this time is completely different and that he is born healthy. Steve is sick today with the flu/fever/stuffy head/sinus pressure/headaches. GREAT! So I am sleeping on the couch. Nothing new really b/c I do about 90% of the time, but I cannot get this thing he has and go into labor! Karlie is getting VERY excited for her brother to come out and she is talking more and more about him. Will the Lord bless me with one like her? She is my little angel and sunshine in life. She is such an amazing little girl and so good, I just can't say enough about how much she has changed my life and I can't believe the Love a mother can have for her children. They are so awesome! Children change you forever and for the better, she shows me what is really important in life, and I feel like I am living life all over through her. I just wish that life would slow down! I don't want her to get old, and already, I wish that I could hold her in my arms again (she's not much of a snuggler!). I think tomorrow I will start walking on the treadmill or bouncing on an exercise ball and try to get this kid out of me!!! :)