Saturday, March 13, 2010

Do my children hate me?

Do you ever feel like your children dislike you? That is how I have been feeling lately, and maybe its because I am home with them all the time or maybe its a "mom" thing, but lately all my kids want is DAD. Even now my 2 year old son asks if Dad can put him to bed, I am the one that has always done it. Now he cries for daddy, and in the morning, he is still crying for daddy. He gets so sad if he doesn't see dad in the morning. Everytime we hear a noise, he thinks its daddy coming home and gets all excited. I was hoping that maybe my son would be a momma's boy but he definitely is NOT. Karlie, she never wants mom to put her to bed. She will wait forever before falling asleep, if I tell her that daddy will come to say goodnight. WHY???? What am I doing wrong? Am I that mean of a mom? I don't feel like I yell all the time, I know that my voice may sound like it, (my mom always tells me that! and I know its true) but honestly I am not upset or mad, It one of the things I hate the most about myself: my TONE....I need to pray harder about it! ;)

I would do anything for my kids! I take them to McDonalds to play, VIP pets to visit animals, were going to Nemo on Ice just the 3 of us, I get them icecream or slushies b/c its their favorite, I take them camping all the time by myself, I take them on bikerides, to parks....The list could go on forever!!!! I play games, even play "underwater fishy" in the bathtub with Karlie b/c she loves to do it with mom. Why do my kids go from fine to absolutely crazy and dramatic the second dad comes home. Even when I was in the hospital and would miss them so much for days, I would walk in the door and they would go runnning right past me to dad. Makes me cry. Is it b/c I am a mom, a part time working mom and home with them alot? Can I fix it? Maybe the other moms feel that way too and I am just normal. Whatever the case, I hope someday they will appreciate and love me and thank me for all the love I continue to pour on them even when they don't love me back.....Being a mom can be so hard sometimes!! :)