Mark Driscoll has a new series out, Ephesians and its about Who am I? I have really reflected, studied, and realized what it is that Lisa is today. First and foremost, a servant of Christ. I love the Lord with all my heart, mind and soul. I haven't been a true christian long, and people come to know Christ at all different stages and ages of life, It took me alittle while, but I am learning and growing with Him each and every day. There is always opportunity to learn and grow in your relationship with Christ and He is my most important relationship b/c without Him I am nothing.
2nd, a Wife to my wonderful husband. Like any marriage, we have our struggles and we have had some rough moments, but a providential blessing from God when I really didn't take God into consideration, He blessed me with a partner right for Lisa. I truly believe that God blessed me with my husband and that Steve is exactly the person that I am to be with. Not only does he make me a better person, He helps me become a better person in Christ.
3rd, a mom to my beautiful kids who teach ME more than I teach them. Isn't that funny? Here parents think that its all about them and about us teaching our kids, but time and time again, my kids have taught me amazing life lessons and again, help me become a better person thru Christ and keep me looking UP and not in. I wish that I could keep them little, I just treasure them so much. But I realize that this is where my identity cannot be found and that they too will be here just a short while and then off on their own to create a path God has planned for them. Mom wants to be in control and protect...But I can't. They are God's and I am only helping Him turn them into the people He has designed.
4th, a servant for my patients. I love my job. This job again is a total blessing from the Lord and again I held NO regard to God when making those decisions 15years ago when I was about to enter the "adult" world. I did what sounded good to Lisa, what did I think would be good? I had NO CLUE!!!! Xray program? Sure sounds good. Check. Thank the Lord and praise Him that He had a plan, He had my life in His hands, and that not a detail was ignored thanks be to God. Little did I know how providential that decision would be in soooo many ways. I found great friends for life, we are like family and love and support each other and when you work closely, that is huge. I also found my 1/2 brother who I had been searching for for 20 years thru Gods ultimate and Divine plan, a patient laying on my table, on a day that I was working, and that God lead me to open up a conversation with only to discover that His brother was also mine....My mom had the great reward and he also of meeting the one that brought him into this world 44 years ago. I also received the medical knowledge to prepare the path that God would bring me down with my own health. Being such a complicated case and rare disease, I don't know what I would have done without my background and knowledge, the Dr's I know, the nurses to help me, even being allowed to scan myself to get Dr's to finally listen!!! What a blessing!!! Then to being able to help my patients and love them and serve Christ by serving them. Going down a struggle with disease and affliction has brought the gap between patient and myself narrower...I can relate, and spread the word of God and how He helped me and can also help them, maybe give them hope when hope doesn't seem possible.
I have realized that its ok to ask God why, its ok to have emotions, feel like you have been forgotten about by God....But that I need to cling to the truths that I now have in Christ. I have a choice, I can either turn away from God and try to do things on my own which in the past, only leads to disaster and aimless wandering, or I can follow Him and continue to Trust HIS plan and see His faithfulness that He has ALWAYS shown to me even when I didn't see it. Gods power is made perfect in my weakness. Life is hard. I have had a hard life. I know struggle, sickness, disease, I have clung to deaths door, I have wanted to walk away from a husband I "thought" was the one always wrong and placing him as my savior, I have been afflicted, bruised and lead thru dark valleys, but GOD revealed to me who He was thru this and He was faithful in the past and He will be faithful to come whatever comes my way. I just LOVE the joy and peace and purpose for Lisa that gives me. My life has and always will be in His hands.....I can honestly shake my head when I look at the divine plan He had for me when I had no clue who steering. I thought Lisa was....ha....ya right. Thank the Lord I wasn't!!!!
